There are times in our lives when life get tough, like a death in the family, broke, relationship ended thinking there is no way out. So we pour our emotion by crying until we feel emotionally numb and even we try to cry more, tears don’t come out anymore.
Sometimes we even told ourselves we will fix it, for example we hurt someone and we apologize but some of us keep doing it over and over, therefore the word sorry is not really genuine anymore.
For me after some soul searching and realized certain things I can’t control I usually keep quiet. That is my way of self admission I have to give up and let God. Just the other day I was emotionally not feeling good, so quietness mean to me is about continue whatever I have to do but inside my emotion is being guarded. It is not because sometimes I am in my own thought I have to treat others mean.
Emptiness means not truly feeling flat or nothing, but rather it is a moment when I pause for solution and give myself a break. The sitting means to me is about knowing something will turn out soon.
What usually show up mostly is the feeling of rebirth, refresh and renew. I often experience that feeling each morning. The heaviness I felt in my heart and mind yesterday transforms into a lightness today, accompanied by the awareness that the unpleasant feelings have dissipated.
